If I Die Tonight

I used to dream

of shining stars

and all the hopes of seeing you inside my mind.

For all the wish, that I have made.

It's all gone tonight.

I used to see,

the world alive

and all the people living on the edge of night.

My only words, that I have chosen,

Maybe it's time to say goodbye.

Save the word,

save the last prayer

So I can take

just one more day.

If I die tonight

If I go tonight

Will you stay forever and kiss goodnight

If I'm lost in sight

If I'm leaving the light.

I think it's time to say goodbye.

I used to pray

for all the souls

and keep me safe from all the nightmares I have known

And in the dark I crawl,

to find that one light tonight

I know that you are,

the only thing that I need

I wish that we, could stay forever in this time alone..

Don't cry, I'll stay with you and kiss you goodnight

But don't say, goodbye.

A.J : It's a lyric. To a song. My song. What's that? Sing it? Hell no!

Apathy

The numbness is here,

The feelings are all gone,

They just disappear,

Like dust of bones.

Bury it deep, the pain.

Hide it far, the hatred.

Drown yourself under the rain,

Like an innocent murdered.

Eyes of sorrows,

Used to beg for sympathy,

Followed like a shadow,

But all that’s left is Apathy.

A.J 

Bury Yourself in the Dark

Bury yourself in the dark,

The unseen gives you pleasure,

Out of the things you can’t have.

You’re asleep with your eyes open,

The nightmare rattles your mind,

And then you bleed.

Hide the mirror now,

The reflection frightens you.

As you drag your feet in the fire,

Everything feels cold

even your heart.

Willing to be forgotten,

Left and buried in the memories,

So painful and dreadful,

The thought of being alone.

Remember those days,

When the air is brighter,

What you left behind,

Will stay alive in your dreams.

A.J

Eyes

For a moment your eyes stitched shut,

Tightly as your heart bleed.

And as the sparkling bead fall,

You breathe the air deep, and wish for hope.

The eyes have walked around,

Touched the heart of many,

And said the unspoken words,

That your mouth can’t enunciate.

A.J

Put Yourself To Sleep

Put yourself to sleep,

With a sad lullaby...

Close your eyes and weep,

But don't say goodbye...

You're gone every second,

With every secret you dig...

Let it be buried in the sand,

Where your heart sinks deep...

A.J

Will You?

I will be in a War tonight,
Will you pray for me?
I’ll try and make it back tomorrow,
Will you wait for me?
But if I don’t make it through the night,
Will you keep a smile and not mourn for me?

A.J

Unwanted

I am an unwanted guest.
I have everything but home.
I want to come home.
Please, just let me go home.

A.J

Let Me Be

I want to be alone tonight.

Go away! Just disappear.

Let me be. Go on.

Let me be alone tonight.

You can come later.

A.J

Insomniac

I could not shut these eyes tonight.
Like every other night.
I could but my mind would wander.
You, yes you, are you reading this?
Then maybe we are the same.
Let's not sleep tonight.
Let's stay awake and wait,
until the sun comes up, together.

A.J

A Tale of a Storyteller

Looking down on me,
I am the worst storyteller, so they say.
‘Cause I deliver the truth.
And truth is ever so ugly.
A.J

Strangers

I took a walk today,
never thought I’d met you.
You smiled, and I replied.
That was it.
We were strangers again.

A.J

Jaded

You’re not here.
I take a glimpse at the time,
I am Jaded. 

A.J

I Want To Live

You are abstruse.
Trap in this maisonette,
and made me a mannequin.
Let go of me so I can live.

A.J

Rahsia

Aku tidak pernah melihat.
Aku tidak pernah mendengar.
Tentang cerita gembira.

Tuliskan rahsia engkau.
Untuk tatapan.
Rahsia yang engkau simpan.

Engkau jatuh lagi.
Ke dasar yang gelap.
Mencari, dan hilang.

Biarkan ia,
Selamanya tidak berubah.
Lepaskan ia,
Selamanya tidak hilang.

A.J

Mimpi

Langit menjadi kanvas,
untuk ku lukiskan kisah dia.
Bermimpi dalam realiti,
Inginkan yang tiada.

Tinggalkan dia sendiri,
Kesejukan dihembus angin,
Seperti selimut derita.

Mimpi menerjah,
Sakit merenung,
Wajah ditatap,

Dia sedar semula.

A.J

Waktu Kegelapan

Ketika aku pejam mata,
Terlihat semuanya hilang.
Ketika aku pekakkan telinga,
Masih terdengar jeritan.

Aku melupakannya,
Aku membencinya,
Aku melepaskannya,
Kenangan itu.

Tiada apa yang tinggal.
Hanya tangisan dan kegelapan,
walau di tengah terik matahari.
Manusia bertelagah,
Memuntahkan peluru.

Bila akan ada lagi?
Harapan untuk kita.
Bila akan ada lagi, ketenangan?

Aku rinduinya,
Aku sayanginya,
Aku hargainya,
Kenangan itu.

A.J: poem about war.

Hilang

Mencari hati. Mencari diri.
Enggan dicemari perasaan iri.
Sejauh mana engkau berlari.
Sejauh itu ia dtang mengekori.
Sanggupkah engkau?
Melepaskan,
Melukakan,
Mengendahkan.
Sampai masanya,
Semua,

Tiada lagi untuk engkau.

A.J

Maaf

Meninggalkan dia seorang.
Menyatakan sayang tapi hilang.
Pandangannya kabur kerana dikaburi.
Mindanya terpesong kerana dipesongkan.

Ku ingin pergi kepadanya.
Nyatakan maaf tentang semuanya.
Tapi kemaafan hanya nama.
Telinga rasa bosan mendengar,
mata rasa sakit melihat,
Kesilapan masih juga disitu.
Dimanakah penyesalan sebenar?

A.J

Dia

Melihat dia tersenyum, aku juga tersenyum.
Hidupku lebih bermakna dengannya.
Tapi dia sedang bersedih.
Aku juga merasakannya.
Mahu disayangi.
Adakah kita menyayangi?
Bukan mudah hidup ini.
Kita yang tentukannya.

Bukan mudah untuk mencintai.
Tapi jika ia datang, janganlah dilukai.
Hidup bagaikan epilog.
Bukan yang indah.
Jauh sekali dirasakan, keindahan itu.
Dimanakah kesetiaan?
Dimanakah janji yang dikatakan?

A.J

This or That /This and That?

Ok. Somebody ask me if I could write my poems in Malay.
Waduh... I don't know if I can. I mean, writing poems in English is hard enough for me, let alone writing them in Malay Language. Which is really weird memandangkan yg I am a Malaysian kan. (Jgn la krg igt aku ni xtau asal usul plak yer.hehe)

Tulah, klu menulis dlm BM ni, nnt kang jd lain pulak, salah pkataan ke. Xnk la merosakkan bhs plak. But it's okay. I want to take the challenge. I'll try make one in BM.

P/s: Thanx for my new follower! Thanks for supporting me yea! :)

Ramp

Words in his mouth. Burst it out.
Push him. Break him. Kill him!
Break free. Like dust of bones.
Crippled. Nothing left.

A.J

Cinderella's Sorrow

She has to leave. She’s broken.
The time comes. The bell chimes.
She had faith for the moon. Once.

A.J 

Solitude

I've chosen my chamber,
The isolation from freedom.
My somber face is ever,
a place for your doom.

I've chosen my spear,
Pierce the heart of the liars,
Begin to wander,
In the abyss of hunger.

I've had my adornment,
To be seen by all means,
Given my acquiescent,
All things shall be obscene.

I've taken my adieu,
Leaving everything in abeyance,
One time to allure,
The sense of ambivalence.


A.J : Not mine. But I love it!

Strangers

Dreaming in a crowded place.
Smiles, tears, laughter, become one.
Take hold of the surface.
Everything seemed blunt.

Strangers on your shoulders.
Eyes meet for a heartbeat.
Some hear whispers.
Some hear acrid.

You’re alone now.
You’re alone tomorrow.

A.J

Days of Summer

Days of Summer

I met you.
We were so alike.
We fell in love.
Everything was perfect.

Sing me a song.
Show me the world.
Draw me a dream.
Then take me to your summer.

It wasn't forever.
We were so drifted.
We wound up in hatred.
Everything was painful.

Write me a story,
with a happy ending.
I want to be free.
From you.

A.J : inspiration from a movie called "500 Days of Summer"..haha..

Lonely Souls

Lonely Souls

Drop the guns, drop the rage.

Leave the hatred, leave the vengeance.

When will we see the end,

of the day, of ourselves?

We begged for what we need.

To forgive, forget. Move on.

So delicate, and fragile.

This heart is.

We weep. As long as the years.

Bleeding the tears, unseen.

Unravel the mystery, of your life.

Go on, don’t stay.

My lonely soul.

It’s slowly breaking down.

Again.

A.J

No Ordinary

Okay guys, I just really can't stick to being just ordinary. I like being different and that includes doing different things. So, words, words, words, that's all!~

A.J~

Ai.

Ai

Floating in a dark sky.
A whispering sound.
Such a perfect lie.
Wonders begin.
You start to cry.

A.J : I have no idea why this one is called ‘Ai’. Da habes tjuk la…dem. 

Tonight

Tonight
Heartless words come uninvited,
Just for tonight, just for tonight.
No more will be at stake,
believe he will ameliorate.

All the sadness and awe,
the cause of ambivalence.

Contemplating in amid of chaos,
Amusing the lips.
Let it be, just for tonight

A.J

Hurt

Hurt
At dawn, everything shines.
Before the eye blinks,
the thunder breaks,
Breaking the silence.

Remember those days,
What you used to say,
“I’ll hold you high up and never let go.
And I’ll guard you till the Night follows.”

Tainting the vows,
Lost of conscience,
Screaming voices,
Penetrates the skins.

Fire burns and she’ll drown.
Breathing mouths in trepidation,
The mind is tremulous.
Freedom disappears.

A.J

Sorry

Hey all. I'm sorry for the sudden 'absence'. It just seems like I had a lot of stuff going on and I just couldn't post any of my poems here. To be truthful, I haven't really create any poems at all for the past few weeks (maybe months). I'm truly ever so very sorry.

Actually, I've got other things up my sleeve. I'm now busy updating my other blog (not here). It's another blog on another site. So yeah, I'm kinda reserved. Anyhoo, I'm coming up with something new. So here goes.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for 'listening' to me :)

Much Love: A.J